Almost to the day, 1 year ago, my husband was called and told that he was getting laid off. And for the last year, we have gone through some of the most difficult times of our marriage and family, and some of the most amazing times. But are you surprised? Isn't that pretty typical of testing situations? It seems that way to me at least. I'm grateful for the experience, but I'm also happy to say: it's over.
Yes, today on basically the exact 1 year mark, my husband was called to go back to work at his old job. I pictured the moment he got a call for a job to be one where I jumped up and down and cried for tears of joy. I didn't. To be honest, I was mad. I was ungrateful. I was bitter. And that was wrong. All I could think about was that this company laid him off and now, just like that, called him back without the hint of an apology or worry about what the last year has done to us.
My hope was that being unemployed for so long would lead us into something better than where we had left off, not just ending up right back where we were. I also know how hard this job was on our family with an intense schedule of lots of hours and night shift work as well as the stress of working with prisoners and their families. Ugh. "Here we go again..." was really what I was thinking.
But that is only looking at the negative side of things. After I had my pity party, TJ and I got a chance to talk with out kids around (we walked to the mailbox and back) and I was able to start seeing things a little more clearly: it's a J.O.B. and a good one. We will finally have medical/dental/vision again. $$ is a pretty nice deal, right? We can stay in Spokane for sure now AND we don't even have to move across town or anything. My husband will be doing what he knows he was created to do; work. And we prayed for God to provide our family with a job, so why should I not rejoice in a prayer answered! So I will! And I will keep working on my attitude, and I will enjoy my last few weeks of work at the coffee shop before I have to stop.
Watch out, the Ewen's are back in the game!
